A Rant For Real Sickness

I just read a blog that was a bit disturbing to me.  One of those blogs that went on about.. “You have a choice.  You choose to be healthy.”  Blah, Blah, Blah.”  Okay, Blogwriter Person, since I am not going to name your Blog or you because that would be rude and I didn’t leave a comment.  It doesn’t really matter because there are many people out there that believe the same thing. ” It’s your decision to get up every day.  Just fight through the pain.”

Were you people born with rare disease issues that have weird side-effects that keep us sick in one way or another?  When you have head or stomach pain to the point that you are vomiting and can only pray for that pill to take the pain away and you can barely move your head or handle noise..can you seriously tell me you are out running a marathon or doing your yoga or Eating a STEAK?  Plus, seriously, “Eat Like A Lion?”  Give me a break.  I don’t care what the Cavemen did.  They may not have had our ailments but they did not have our weather with the pollution and cars, etc to deal with either.  Their meat came straight from the animals and their vegetables came straight from the ground.  No sprays on those vegetables to keep them fresh.  My system cannot handle wheat and I do not believe in eating animals.  Plus, everybody’s body is different so the same diet does not work for everyone.

Back to my questions to people with this belief or philosophy, is my choice of waking up saying I am going to be healthy today going to get my body healed soon so I will not have to have a hysterectomy?  It hasn’t worked so far.  And, it’s funny because on Friday, I tried to make that choice when I had to do the treadmill test without caffeine and my headache pain was so bad; I could not go through with it.  I was vomiting and my husband had to pick me up from the hospital and take me home.

It’s a great idea in theory, but it doesn’t work for those of us who are seriously ill with Real sickness.

This reminds me of when I was in school and could never pass  a test because I had test-anxiety.  Nobody ever caught that and I failed almost EVERY test.  I pretty much passed all my classes with homework and extra credit.  I could study for hours and I would still fail the test.  Just say the word, “Test” and I would blank out.  If I believed your philosophy.  I could just believe I would pass the test and I would be able to pass.  Guess what?  I tried that once.  Still failed.

Being chronically ill, I get tired of people with this belief/philosophy.

I don’t mean or try (as a matter of fact, I try not to) to complain about my health all the time.  But, this blog is to update friends, family and strangers about my life especially the health aspect, so I don’t have to keep repeating it.  I have a lot of health issues which I Can’t Help without doctors and pills or shots, or whatever.  I am helping myself in getting help from others.

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Amusing Spam

I have been sick since the 2nd so I saw my Primary first thing this morning and have been diagnosed as having a minor case of Bronchitis and I will be starting on the Z-Pack.  I’ve had the Z-Pack before and I am actually looking forward to taking it and finally kicking this crap.  I get so tired of being sick after a while.  It sucks when you are on immunosuppressants and get the same stuff over and over again.  Plus, sickness always last longer than everyone else and you just can’t kick it without antibiotics.

Actually, it isn’t just from the transplant and immunosuppressants.  I have been this way all my life due to my metabolic disorder.  I never did get the ‘Perfect Attendance Award’ in school.  I remember my mother telling me that was a stupid award anyway because it encouraged children to go to school while sick and getting everyone else sick.  When I was younger, I would wind up in the hospital with Bronchitis or the Flu for weeks at a time.  At least now I am older, I know how to handle things at home but I still get sick way more than I would like to.  Not that anyone likes being sick.

I’ve had some interesting Spam comments lately.  Obviously, I haven’t approved them.  Yeah, I know..it’s hard to tell sometimes if its Spam, Ham, Pam (what?’), etc.. but where do some of these come from?  One of them keeps telling me my writing has gotten boring to them and they will continue reading if my writing improves because they know I can do better.  Excuse Me!  Did I not mention, this is my real life?  Gosh, I’m so sorry my real life is boring to you.  Out of all the wonderful, exciting blogs out there you can read, I’m sure there are many interesting ones you can find to fill whatever fantasy it is to keep you going.  I’m not going to cater to you one spammer person because you find my blog boring that you are so important that I should change my life posts in order to keep you as a follower.  I am so sorry.

Then, there are the others asking how to like the blog by mobile or what server I am using?  What?  I have no idea.  This is WordPress, is it not?  I am not technological.  You figure it out.  Aren’t those technology questions, you would ask of WordPress?  Of course, we can’t forget the gobbledygook things like:  “This information is newsworthy and I will share it with my friend who is writing about such things and will find it interesting”,  “Your writing is amazing and news is interesting.  I will share with others and come back.”,  “I was searching for sites with news such as this, I will definitely return.”

Isn’t it wonderful?  These people were actually searching for true stories about people who have given change for the bus to those who don’t really need it and they thought it was news-worthy.  Apparently, their friends will too so they are forwarding that one and I may get more readers.  I don’t think so.

I would love to hear about some of your Spam comments.  Don’t you find them a bit amusing?

This One’s For You.

It’s after midnight and my eyes are going out and I have to do the dishes, but, I will take 5 minutes or so to update You my Friends and Followers because I don’t want to lose you all just because I am working on a novel.

This blog really is important to me and I try to keep up every few days.  I am so sorry if my life is boring to you now.  I now understand why most writers are or become very reclusive.  The weather is starting to cool a bit which makes it the perfect setting to stay in my pajama’s.  Don’t worry, I do bathe and change my underwear and write at my computer all day if I wish..like I did today.  I must admit, today I got to over 28k,.  I did decide it was time for a break and played a few Bingo games, etc.  as a distraction from what my main character is now going though in the strange place in which she has arrived.

I learned today that my  surgery date is set for the 28th of this month which means while most people doing Nano will have until the 30th, I will have 3 days less.  While my surgery only lasts a day, I don’t think my story would end well if I am on Vicodin and I really am not sure how well I will do sitting on a chair after the surgery anyway.

We learned yesterday that a neighbors cat has been missing for two weeks which is quite sad.  It is a really a friendly cat too and would visit everyone.  What gets me though isthe owner is now asking if there is an AVID site yet, he still has not looked for the Chip # paperwork.  Nor, has he called, gone-to or checked the website for the local Animal Shelter.  Plus, there are no lost cat signs posted anywhere.  In my opinion, if you truly wanted your cat back, you would be doing one or all of these things plus, going door-to-door asking if anyone had seen him.  I have  lost my Fur-Children before and believe me, you don’t want to tangle with me because I get determined and hysterical about finding them.  When your animal has been gone two weeks and this is the reaction, it tends to make me wonder.

Okay, I must close my eyes now and I really cannot wash dishes with my eyes closed.  Believe me, I’ve tried it and the water runs to long.  It may not be tomorrow, it may be the day after.  However, please have patience and please keep reading this blog.  Who knows, maybe next year, I’ll put you in my Novel.  I really don’t know how I can use you in this one unless you give me permission to use your first (WordPress) name.  I will need more character names so I may even need you in this one.

Please let me know if this is acceptable.

Good-Night

 

Her Post, But From Inside Me

I read something scary yesterday.  I read a post that could have come from myself from inside my head.  The difference is the girl who wrote it is actually living physically the situation I’ve only mentally gone through.  I would never take the actions nor write the words she wrote in her blog.  I believe there is  a BIG Difference in dreaming and doing.  I am seriously shocked by this persons honesty in a blog and even more shocked by her actions.

I wanted to tell her that I have been there in my head..to let her know she is not the only one, but even that is to much to write in a comment.  That is admittance to a subject that will remain locked away as is best.

 

Post On Spam

Today I want to talk about Spam.  Spam is a lunch meat.  I used to like it before I became Vegetarian/Flexitarain and gave in to my love of animals.  Plus, I need to be on a low-protein diet anyway due to my disease..but I digress.. I used to take Spam Sandwiches for lunch which was basically canned Spam mixed with mayo in a sandwich.    My father was a retired Marine having served a long time in the Marine Corps. (being on the USS Tennessee which was attached to the USS Arizona during Pearl Harbor and losing half his men as well)…  Yeah.. Yeah.  I know… once again I digress.   Anyway, dad used to call Spam “Shit On A Shingle” because he said that is pretty much all they ate and it tasted terrible. but when I was in school, I liked the taste.

Nnow we call the weird messages we get from weird people who have nothing to do with the topics we write about, “Spam.”  Does anyone know how that came about?  Could there not have been another word for it?  Let’s see..we could see it as a possible threat.  We could have just said P.T. or it could cause possible computer harm so there’s always the term, “Warning Llight.”  Hey, I like that.  We already have a trash folder here but Spam?  Is that really insulting enough for all these weird messages we really don’t want, can’t use, and/or are possibly harmful to our computers?

Do you ever wonder just what the production company of Spam thinks of this?

Also, speaking of Spam… I have been.  What types of Spam do you receive on your blog site?  Isn’t it weird to get Spam leading yu to other sites that have absolutely nothing to do with yours?  and why do I get comments starting “Dear Webmaster..”  Now, that is weird.  I guess sex type spam will show up everywhere so that is not to much of a surprise nor are the ones of how to get more followers.  Like I would follow a Spam suggestion.  I think not.

 

What Do You Do All Day?

For those who are unemployed, (especially with ADD/ADHD) how do you spend your day?

My husband asks the question, “What do you do all day?” Heck, my doctor has asked that one too.  It’s hard to explain:

I admit, I spend way to much time reading then doing.  I read way to many blogs on WordPress and my other journal catching up with new blogs I follow to make whatever comments necessary and to feel as if I’ve gotten to know the authors of the blogs before posting my own blog.  I check my e-mail and Facebook every day without fail.  Okay, the e-mail without fail.  I may look at Facebook but if I don’t post, that’s not a big deal.  I make a list of things to do but I am so slow in the morning I usually don’t get started until 11 or 12.  Plus, I give myself credit if half the list gets done.  The list includes things like wash hair, fill coffee container, make husbands lunch.  Simple things that normal people (whatever normal is) would naturally do without a reminder.

I have been focusing on the upcoming garage sale  lately and finding more things to sell each day and I put an ad on Craig’s List and posted on Facebook about it so it will be a success.  Plus, I have been looking for a framed picture of a Black Panther (animal) for the Living Room Wall since we’ve decided to decorate with wild animals and abstract art.

Sometimes, it doesn’t look like I accomplish much, but I really do.  I only allow myself one  or two t.v. shows during the afternoon and the rest are after my husband gets home from work.

I make a list every night for the next day and transfer over the things that didn’t get done  to the next days list.  It’s a never-ending cycle.  Weekends..nothing on the list gets done though since my husband is home and it is a wknd after all.

Blogging Is Good Therapy

When I started seeing my Therapist, I had issues.  My mother had died which still bothered me.  I went mental for a while.  My husband and I had some serious issues.  I had a mental breakdown or maybe just messed up my pills and took to much of my one of them, I’m not sure but I had some weird seizure along with hallucinations which scared us to death.  Anyway, things are well now.  Except for the stupid skin tag issue which my Therapist cannot help with anyway.  My husband and I are doing great!  We’ve been appreciating and listening to each other more, I think and we are both making some sacrifices for the other.  My brain has calmed down a lot since I have an easier system of keeping track of my meds and I’ve changed my anti-depressant medication.  I know my mother is gone but she is still watching me (no longer with criticalness (my word) and judgement) and sometimes I still share with her what is going on.

Needless to say, I think I am going to end the visits to my Therapist.  This is very hard as she has become a friend, as well in a way.  However, if I have issues.  I will just blog about some of them.  I must remember family and friends read this.   I’ve com to the conclusion that blogging is a lot cheaper than therapy and a lot more fun too.  I do believe I may feel guilty after leaving my Therapist which may be the hardest part to deal with but should I need to see her again..my insurance covers so many visits and I could alway’s call and start again, I suppose.  After all, you cannot keep a Therapist around just to talk about the weather without a good reason.

Censorship and Soliciting

I have two blogs at two different sites.  One is private elsewhere and this one is public so friends.family, whomever can keep updated on what is going on.  This one actually reaches a very wide audience..audience.  am I on a stage?  Is this a show?  No, this is my life.  But, I digress.  The point is there are things on this site I would like to discuss but cannot because I do not want to offend my family and friends which is why I have my other blog.  Actually, I suppose my other blog site also can reach a wide audience of people as well if I make the posting public, however, it is not the same as here.  Anyway, it is hard and sad at times to censor what is written here or not discuss a topic because of who may be reading this one..but that is what I do.

I think  today’s topic will be ‘ Soliciting’.  I have a funny ‘No Soliciting’ sign that says, “We Love Our Vacuum, We Found God, and We Give At the Office.”  However,  someone tell me, what is ‘soliciting’?  I continue to open my door and find flyers for real estate, restaurants, voting, picnics, churches, etc.   There is less knocking on the door but the paperwork still arrives.  Is that not still soliciting?  My husband says soliciting is when someone one is trying to sell you something.  I got into it with the neighbor about churches coming to the door because he believes preaching is not soliciting.  But, they are still trying to convince me to attend their church and they still knock on my door and invade my privacy.

Would you rather I get a sign that says, “Keep Out..Go Away…Don’t Knock On The Door!”  Sheesh, now that would be rude.

Somebody knocking on the door, Somebody ringin the bell, Somebody knocking on the door, Somebody ringing the bell, Do me a favor,  Don’t open the door.

 

Have a good day.

Thanks For Sharing

I just went through everyone’s Blogroll of whom I am reading and became a Follower of those I am interested.  This is how you find more interesting Blogs. 

Today I woke up with a horrible Sinus Band Headache around my head.  Luckily, Maxalt takes care of Sinus and Migraine Headaches.  I am still a bit cold and Sinusy and it’s a horribly, icky, rainy day so I may just stay home and stay warm and do internet church so as to avoid getting sick.

I have a physical coming up on the 29th however I need to e-mail my doctor sooner because I have had Hemorrhoids now for about 3 months straight.  I seriously didn’t think that possible.  I’ve read the directions and don’t want to overuse the medications.  There’s got to be a daily pill or something to help this.  

 

 

Followers and Blogging

Today I want to talk about Followers.

  Do you Follow people Blogs because they are your friends or friend of friends?  Do you Follow people’s Blogs because you find them interesting and do you look for people who have something in common with you?  I tend to look for people whom I have something in common with.  A certain lifestyle.  Some of the same moralistic beliefs as well as whatever the main topic is of which I was interested..Depression, ADD, etc.. whatever the Blog is about at the time.  I also follow close friends blogs.  I once followed the wife of my husband’s friends Blog because I really wanted to try to get to know her better but alas, her life is far from mine in all aspects.  Which bring me to my next topic..

 When you decide to stop following..do you ever give the Blogger advanced warning?  I have private blog on another site and I had made the mistake (before making it Private) of explaining before leaving why I was going to end the communication with whoever.  Most were okay with it but some would get totally offended!  We are strangers so that is just ridiculous.  I did not degrade anyone in any way.  I may have told someone that I did not agree with their lifestyle so it would not work for me but please…

  Anyway, What are some of the reasons you stop following Blogs?  Do you get tired of them after a while as time goes on and their content changes?  One reason, I finally stopped following my husbands, friends, wifes, Blog is because after a while it felt as if I was just following it because of who she was.  When I did make a comment to her on Facebook about her blog she never said anything plus she knows I have a Blog and as far as I know she never once looked at it.  If she see’s this now, I hope she understands. 

 I now stop following Blogs when I realize the blogger and I just don’t have enough in common or when I discover something I had not known about their lifestyle that I do not believe in, etc..  On WordPress, I simply disappear into the masses with no forwarning..one less Follower on your list.  I think of Followers as my friends and if I choose to Follow you, your Blog will probably make my Blogroll.

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