My Mother’s Day Vacation

My husband is off to Vegas to spend time with his Mother and Aunt for Mother’s Day and Our Anniversary. It sort of sucks but it would be wrong to put myself through pain in a hotel room and have to deal with continuous lights and noise right now. I will spend Mother’s Day with my beautiful babies:

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I don’t know if I will get the Mary Poppins motivation this time. I seem to always fill with good intentions but can’t seem to follow through.

Perhaps it will be a good wknd to get some writing done on my book, since I am alone with quiet.

My Storm Watch & Future Preparation

It’s Storm Watch.  Really.  Yes, ..I’m watching for it.  They’ve said for two days now we are supposed to have a storm with thunder, lightening, etc.  We had a wee bit of rain yesterday and last night, but thats it.  I need to go grocery shopping.  Whole Foods is a ways away.  I don’t want to spend an hour shopping at and have to drive home in the rain.  I don’t like driving when people don’t know how to drive and half the time they don’t use their blinkers anyway, so you should see it when its raining.  I found 27 pages of gluten-free foods at Whole Foods.  I am still watching for the storm because after it comes and goes, I can go shopping.  In the meantime, I am trying to finish what I have here. 

I am beginning to wonder if Blue Bonnet Margarine is really gluten-free.  Due to some stomach issues and that’s what I have increased lately;  I think it may not be.

In my last entry;  I talked about writing my book.  I’ve re-started it, albeit very slowly.  I also talked about my kidney transplant 6 years ago.  I got to thinking and talking to my husband.  6 years is a long time.  While his kidney is great and I have had no problems in that regards, that does not mean I will not have a rejection ever.

  I would really love to live in a mobile home park before I get to sick to enjoy it.  Why?  Because they have pools and club-houses and sometimes, activities and maybe I would want to walk around more in a smaller type community.  My husband said we can continue looking.  Who knows? maybe we can even rent something for a bit until we retire and move where we really want to go. 

I also thought of something else in the same regards.  Should anything happen to me, I would want someone to finish my book.  This is how important it is to me.  I just talked to my sister.  She has always wanted to be a writer.  Heck,  I even encouraged her to be a participant in the last Nanowrimo event.  I was so proud she participated.  She said she will finish the book should anything drastic (my passing) occur. I have already written the ending of the story at the top.  She would have all my diary notes and my manuscript to go from.     I very much doubt anything will happen but, it is in God’s hands, not mine.  

 

Asking For Encouragement

yesterday was the 6th anniversary of my kidney transplant.  I am so thankful to my wonderful husband for donating his kidney to me.  Kidney-wise, I’ve been doing well.

I went for a blood test yesterday also because according to my doctor at Cedars, I may have a gene that affects my immune system which is why I seem to get sick like every 2-3 weeks.  It is so annoying to get a sore throat, cold, etc.  ALL the time.  If I have a low part of my immune system; they can send me for an I.V. infusion of some type for like four hours twice. (not twice a week, but he said twice… I’m not quite sure how often.) in order to pump up my immune system.  I am sort of hoping they find something and we can do this.

My next step after that health-wise is a Hysterectomy.  I am semi-young but am having problems in that regard.  I just need clearance from a few of my other doctors which I am working on.

Enough health talk – I started writing my book again, basically from scratch.  I am following from old diary notes and memory.  I am changing all names and a few of the details.  I may write it as factual first and then see what exactly to change.  My problem is this is really tough on my mind and I really need motivation to continue.  I have wanted to do this for a while.  I believe it will help others in the same type situations..maybe to realize how people can change from being good to suddenly gaining control without you even realizing.

Unfortunately, I am the type of person that needs people to ask, “How is your book going?”  “Are you still writing?”  or say things like, “You can do it.”  I would like to request this type of help from my friends on Facebook but I don’t know how to ask for this type of encouragement.

My Life News

So, I’m getting better though I feel like my throat is never going to clear up.  This feels like the same crap I alway’s get. I think the tube thing just triggered it probably.  As for the surgery site, I am a bit sore but not to bad.  It is more of a pressure verses actual pain and nothing like before.  I still have a piece of tape on my rear cheek and I hate to tear it off; but I work at it when I take a bath because the water helps to loosen it so soon all the tape should be gone.  I’m already down to 3 10 minute baths a day verses 4 which is nice.

My husband said he was going to check out my story which I wrote for Nano but he only got through (okay, maybe skimmed) 5 pages because doesn’t like to read books and didn’t realize how long 50,000 words are.  It turns out to be about 64-65 pages which I told him before he even decided to read it.  I did print a copy for my sister and I have a few friends that want to read it.  I haven’t decided if I want to turn it into an actual book or not.  If I do; it would have to be adult fiction.

Next week is a party which I am debating on attending.  I was really excited about it at first but I am re-considering because its the night after my

B-Day and my husband said he may take me away for the night for my B-Day instead.  I would rather go with him.  Although the party will have a lot of high school friends attending I only get to see once a year or so; it’s a lot of drinking and I don’t drink anymore ;so I could always wait for another time.  I’ve been to this for the last two years I think, and I think I may do something different.

Sorry So Slow, I’m Writing

Sorry, I haven’t kept up and I hope I don’t drive you all crazy when I do, but it’s NANO month and I’m doing it!  We are supposed to be at 25,000 words today and I am determined to get there.

I need to go to the dentist to and I have to clean the counters. No excuses.  I can’t have the granite chipping off because I am writing a novel.  This is awesome.  This is proving that I can write on a deadline and actually create something.  I am getting my ideas while washing my hair.  It’s crazy.  I don’t post much about it on Facebook because others are doing the same thing but I know I drive my sister nuts.  Come on Sis, You can do this!  Start writing again!  Jump back on the bandwagon.  Pretend it’s the first two days.  You can finish your book that way.  Heck, we don’t even have to worry about spelling, grammar, or punctuation..although we do have spell-check so I will use that.  I’m driving my neighbors crazy.  I tell everyone about this.  I tell strangers about this!  I wore my Nanowrimo t-shirt yesterday.  I am so proud of myself!

In other news… What other news?

I dropped my shoe-boxes off for Operation Christmas Child.  I went  to two different locations.  I’ve learned if you do it that way, there is a better chance of your boxes going to two different countries because they arrive at the Processing Center at different times.    If yo havne’t mad e a box this year, I highly encourage it.  You can even make one interactively at  the website www.samaritanspurse.org. It’s only a $7.00 donation per box and it only takes one box to help one child in another country.  This will be the only present they will probably ever ever receive in their entire lives.

I haven’t really been socializing because I think it’s best to play it safe before my surgery. That doesn’t mean I won’t get together one on one with people but I may avoid some parties.  I was invited to an 80’s get-together tomorrow night and I really want to go but on the other hand, I think it’s best to minimize that at present, with my weak immune system.   After my surgery, I will be happy to party and have fun.

Plus, I will feel more comfortable and my novel will be finished.   Oops, did I mention that again?  My novel?  Don’t those words sound professional?  My Novel?  Say that with me, won’t you?  “My Novel”  Look husband, I have a job.  I’m a Novelist.  Okay, not necessarily.  My first book was a Children’s Book, but I am definitely a Writer.  See, I’m not just unemployed.  I am a Freelance Writer which was I’ve alway’s dreamed to be.

Don’t worry, I’ll tune in again soon.

Important Health Update Break

I saw the surgeon today and it turns out I will need surgery for my Anal Fissure.  I am not surprised.  After numerous creams and baths, etc.  Nothing has worked and it is still the same.  He says this surgery is Outpatient and has a 90% success rate.  He just cuts into the sphincter.  That’s exactly the way he worded it..made it sound really simple.   He said there is a 3% chance of long range complications of witholding gas and feces. (sounds like eternal IBS.) Guess that’s a risk I’m willing to take to get rid of pain.

In other news, Nanowrimo has some really cool games you can play when you want to be distracted from simply writing on your story.  One I like is sort of like Add-A-Story which some of you may have played growing up.  Someone starts a story and stops when it gets good then someone else takes it over and so on and so on until it turns out totally funny.  Or, maybe everyone was timed until the story ended.  Anyway, in this case.. the story is actually written (if you could call it a story) with the last lines from stories people are writing.  Example:

Someones last line they wrote of their story was:  “She opened her eyes and saw a ghost.”

The next person’s was: “But Trapper Jon said it wasn’t true.”

The next person said:  “Leif, I don’t trust you.”..and so on.

 

Now put it together.  She opened her eyes and saw a ghost, but Trapper John said it wasn’t true.  “Leif, I don’t trust you..”

It really does start to sound funny after a while especailly when so many people seem to be writing science fiction pieces and you throw in a few stories (like mine) that aren’t science fiction.  Now, after a I add a few hundred words or so, I  like to add my last line to the game and read them to see what we’ve come up with.  By the time I get to the end of the reading; someone else has added something after me so it usually turns out pretty silly.

Needed Nano Motivation & Mood

This morning was very strange.  I had no motivation for Nanowrimo.  It was quite odd for me.  It was almost Biblical like how God made the world in 6 days and on the 7th day he rested.  Well, this is the 8th day of Nanowrimo and I’ve been at the novel for the first straight 7 days.  This is the first day, it was almost a chore.  I preferred playing games on FB plus I found a comfy, fleece, pajama, set I’ve been looking for and then tonight I got a bit distracted because my husband decided to start watching a show he knows I like and our t.v. is located right next to the computer.. but somehow thorough it all, I did manage to type out 1400 words today.  I also went outside and took a different picture to become the cover.  At least it will be the temporary cover until or unless I find an actual publisher should my novel be good enough.  I don’t know about that yet.

I am extra tired today because my dog woke me up from a sound sleep when the gardeners got here around 8:00 this morning.  I wish they would come at the same time every Thursday morning but it is alway’s unpredictable.

Plus, the stress of the election put me in a really, weird mood.  I think I am a bit depressed over the state of this country but nothing can be helped now.  I don’t want to hear anyone else say anything about wanting change because it obviously isn’t true.  A lot of the other things I voted for or against did not turn out the way I wanted either.  What a drain to really believe/hope that once again your vote would count only to find that it didn’t in a lot of ways.

 

Nanowrimo Still Going

Wow, this Nanowrimo thing is really coming along.  I am really proud of myself.  Sorry, I hope I don’t sound like I’m boasting but even my husband is proud of me.  I tend to start things and not stick with them but I just love watching the word count go up and watching the stats and the days go down to the finish line.

I decided to keep encouraging myself I bought myself a Nanowrimo t-shirt from their store.  I hope it doesn’t take to long to get it.  Plus, now I have the word-tracker up on both the web sites I blog on; so that really helps me to continue.

I try to encourage those I call Nano Friends as well.  I’ve read a lot of books that don’t make sense.  Who cares if yours does nor doesn’t at present?

We are all in this together so please don’t give up or the load will get much heavier.

Writing & Restaurants

Hey, This is my first pop-in since starting Nanowrimo.  I am pretty proud of myself because I am actually doing it.  I wrote 1900 words today which was the most so far.  If I go up in words every day, it would be fantastic.  I’ve pretty much set myself a schedule and I find the best time to write is when I first get up after I’ve checked my one comic and any major e-mails, then I just get going while I drink my coffee.  While I knew basically what my story was about, my main character is in high-school and she may be leading me a different direction.  I need to see if I can avoid that or I will have to completely change the title and the whole first few paragraphs at the beginning.  I don’t mind a few loops thrown in but I’m not sure I want her to completely take the story over.  I am thinking if I can really complete Nano (and at this rate + with this attitude, I believe I can), I will have confidence to finish the true story I was working on afterward.  Although, I may take a break and enjoy December, first.  That one is a lot tougher because it is about a mentally,  abusive relationship I actually lived through and I am working from notes from old diaries and memories.  Nano is a lot more fun coming from my imagination.

Other than Nano, my friend and I went to B.J’s Pizza and Brewery in Huntington Beach, CA because I thought they had a large Gluten-Free Menu.  I am a bit picky and I really don’t think their Gluten-Free Menu is quite as large as I’d hoped.  The pizza choices are a bit narrower then expected and the way the Veggie Potato was described was a bit confusing.  The manager was nice enough to come and talk to me about it, after we ordered.  But, needless to say, it’s not one of my favorite places.  I also tried Taco Bell after reading that the Nacho’s were safe and I have to disagree.  Maybe it was the Cheese Sauce which had a wonderfully, hot zing to it.  All I know is that’s  another place I need to stay away from except for maybe their Hash Browns.

Hope all is well with everyone, I’ll be back.  Tomorrow morning is back to Nanowrimo Land.  I want to do this thing so this month, I can’t use Sundays for days of rest.  I know God understands.

I Am Doing This

I did it.  I just signed up with Nanowrimo to write a novel of 50,000 words from scratch by the end of November. It starts November 1st.   This will be good practice for me on writing and to see if I can meet a goal.  It has to be fiction.

Wish me luck.

 

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