Getting To The Bottom Of The Problem

Well, today was the day I was both waiting for and dreading.  The day of the specialist/surgeon appointment.  This one was a lady and she was super nice.  She didn’t have to use that horrible tool this time and she  totally empathized when I told her about what happened with the rude, male doctor I saw (who is in the same medical group and office she is in.  They have like 4 or 5 exam rooms or whatever and 4 or so doctors so it’s not like he heard me, not that I care).  Anyway, she even explained what can cause the fissures to be painful and a bit of how to try to keep your diet stable in order to handle it.

We are going to try, yet another, type of cream but this one has a really high success rate for curing people.  If it doesn’t work; our next step will be Botox into the area.  She said Botox does pretty much the same thing as surgery.  She said surgery is a last resort because some people who have surgery can become incontinent when it comes to gas or bowel movements and then they must have a follow-up surgery later.

Now, I have to find a Coumpound Pharmacy somewhere close to me and see if it is covered by insurance and how much this is all going to cost.    I would say I also need to have patience but it’s been over a year so I have lots of that.  Plus, if theres a real cure for this, it’s worth the wait.

Different Updates

The weather has changed to semi-cool and rainy.  Actually, it’s warm and rainy which is odd for here but it is causing me migraine headaches.

I saw my new Nephrologist yesterday and he seems okay.  He actually spent more time with me in the first visit then my old Nephrologist did in every visit I went to in the time I saw him  from 2005.  I mean individual visit..not combined.

I called to make an appointment with the specialist for the skin tags however, they wrote anal fissure on the authorization and since I have skin tags there too, the doctor won’t look at the skin tags (which is what needs to be removed) unless it is specifically written on the referral.  It’s alway’s something!  So, I need to get a new referral before I see the specialist.

We have 5 houses including us participating in the yard sales next wknd so I am going to take the permits to the city today.  3 more and it would have been half the street.  On well, it’s still multi-family.

Eye Vessel Pop & Other Issues

A blood vessel in my eye popped Tuesday morning but what was really weird was I felt it happen.  It freaked me out as  my eye filled with blood.  I had to check the internet to make sure I could close it to go to sleep.  It still hurts a bit and is causing headaches.  But, I am a headache sufferer anyway.  I guess I won’t worry unless my vision starts getting bad or something  as it is supposed to heal itself.

Luckily, it was the day prior that I had dropped all the notes and permit forms for the garage sale to the neighbors offering to take them to the city when I take mine.  One has already returned theirs.

I received my referral in the mail for the surgeon regarding my anal skin tag situation.  I was pleasantly, surprised to discover she is a female.  It will be good to see someone with a better manner than the last male specialist/surgeon I saw regarding this.  Being a female, I’m sure she will have some more understanding and empathy for this situation.

My husband and I went to Sizzler last night.  I looked at the picture of the shrimp and remembered it (which I cannot have anymore) but the Salad Bar is still really good.  Plus, when I went shopping yesterday, I bought quite a few more fresh fruits and veggies.. like Artichokes and Raspberries.  Yum.

 

Blogging Is Good Therapy

When I started seeing my Therapist, I had issues.  My mother had died which still bothered me.  I went mental for a while.  My husband and I had some serious issues.  I had a mental breakdown or maybe just messed up my pills and took to much of my one of them, I’m not sure but I had some weird seizure along with hallucinations which scared us to death.  Anyway, things are well now.  Except for the stupid skin tag issue which my Therapist cannot help with anyway.  My husband and I are doing great!  We’ve been appreciating and listening to each other more, I think and we are both making some sacrifices for the other.  My brain has calmed down a lot since I have an easier system of keeping track of my meds and I’ve changed my anti-depressant medication.  I know my mother is gone but she is still watching me (no longer with criticalness (my word) and judgement) and sometimes I still share with her what is going on.

Needless to say, I think I am going to end the visits to my Therapist.  This is very hard as she has become a friend, as well in a way.  However, if I have issues.  I will just blog about some of them.  I must remember family and friends read this.   I’ve com to the conclusion that blogging is a lot cheaper than therapy and a lot more fun too.  I do believe I may feel guilty after leaving my Therapist which may be the hardest part to deal with but should I need to see her again..my insurance covers so many visits and I could alway’s call and start again, I suppose.  After all, you cannot keep a Therapist around just to talk about the weather without a good reason.

Thoughts On Seeing A Surgeon

When I was young I spent the first two yearss in the hospital with my metabolic disorder.  As I got older I was in the hospital every time I got the flu and put on I’V’s.  Those hurt.  My mother would take me to Children’s Hospital in Los Angeles every 3-6 months for a check-up where they would draw blood.  I did not look forward to it.  Sometimes the Phlebotomists had to stick me more than once..that hurt.

When I had my Appendectomy in 2000, the pain was excruciating.

I’ve lived through the pain of Migraine headaches where I’ve wanted to die as well as impacted feces, and vaginal warts.  The stupid doctor had the nerve to notify me that prostitutes get vaginal warts as I was in his office in agony. He used dry ice to burn them off.  Pain?  You bet!

Needless to say, the reason I write all this is because I am tired of this pain from these stupid Anal Skin Tags.  I am going to call my Gastro and have him refer me to a Surgeon.  I need to stop reading about the painful recovery process and just bite (or sit on) the bullet and deal with it.  These stupid creams the doctors are giving me are only temporarily relieving the symptoms but are not taking away the problem.

A bit more pain for a few more months to be normal again will be worth it in the end….Literally.

Doc Update and Other Things

I need to find a non-stick saute pan with a lid.  I bought a saute pan with a lid that is not non-stick and the first thing it did was made my  food burn and stick to the pan.  Can we say Annoying!!!

My theory came true but not because I mentioned it.  I got a really bad headache last night and had to take my strong medicine.  I think it was because of my mental day on Wed.  A lot of times when my brain acts up; I pay for it later.    I am praying I am not getting sick today though because I woke up feeling like crap.  I shouldn’t be to surprised because while at the hospital, people were coughing, sneezing, etc. and I still have my wonderful immune system.

I saw my Gastro yesterday and he said the main way to confirm I have Celiac would be a biopsy but the biopsy would not come out correctly unless I stopped eating gluten for a while which I am not going to do.  Plus, if the biopsy came out positive the treatment would be to go on a total, gluten-free diet which I’m doing anyway so we may as well just things alone.  I just term myself Celiac and live this way.    It’s easier to say I am; then to say I have a wheat intolerance.  I don’t know about Rye or Barley anyway.  It’ s not something I’ve really tested on my system.

My Gastro also checked my Anal Skin Tags.  Luckily, it was quick and he didn’t have to use the invasive tool because he can SEE them.  He confirmed they are Skin Tags and gave me a new cream to try out, plus he said if this doesn’t work he will refer me to a surgeon.  Please pray it works..

Today is the B-Day of someone I am not in contact with.  She is 7.  I don’t know if I can wish her a Happy Birthday on Facebook or not.  If her father announces it,  I suppose I will wish her one in the comments section.  This will be the first year ever that I did not get her a birthday present.  She will alway’s be in my thoughts.

Changing Into My Husband

I need to start exercising again so I tried the StationeryBicycle last night which was a terrible idea.  Even though I sat on a towel.. with these terrible anal skin tag things, I thought I wa going to die.  I am still burning and am just surprised my whole ass isn’t burning off.

They say when you get a transplant of pretty much any kind apparently, you can take on the characteristics of the person who donated the kidney to you.  I believe that has happened with the qualities of my husband who was my donor.  I am starting to agree with him in some aspects in the way he feels about children,  I have been watching more sports,  I have become less social..  It’s scary how much more like him I am becoming. Aalthough I cannot see myself adapting a lot of that lame guy sense of humor any time soon…that’s for sure.

 

Who Should I See?

Help.  What type of specialist (s) do you recommend for Anal Fissures/Skin Tags?  They need to take Blue Shield/ ADOC–(Affiliated Doctors of Orange County-HMO)  I need to ask my GP to get me to someone soon,  and this time I don’t want another GP that also knows about this.  I want a  Specialist of some sort.

So much pain.

This will sound gross but I described it to my husband as a Flea bite.  Now, multiply that by 12 (more like 100) and imagine them coming from inside your body every time you use the restroom.  I’ve been using the Healing Oil I ordered for a few days now (two?) but I’m not sure that’s going to work and it was really expensive.  I know they have a guarantee but I should give it at least another week before returning it..I just have a feeling it may be making me sting more.

Re-thought the motel situation while painting.  I am not going to bring the dog with me.  My husband will be here at night.  The idea of me going to the motel is so I don’t get sick staying here with paint fumes.  I am going by myself without the dog.  I have to be here all day with the animals anyway.  As soon as my husband gets home, I’ll take off and this way I will be away from the fumes as much as I can, to help my immune system.

New Year but Old Health

I can finally say my cold is starting to get better and tomorrow I plan to go to the store and do an exchange finally.
I am suffering stupid Hemorrhoids/Skin Tags again and may call the other specialist this week.

I’ve just discovered I’ve been eating way to many foods lately that cause gas so that is something else I am going to have to work on I guess…  Monitoring that.