Specialist Instructions and Onward

The referral to the surgeon has been approved and I am going to call tomorrow to get things set up.  I guess the medical director had to give the okay for the change.  I don’t know why it was such a hassle to get a closer doctor.

Anyway, a few things the specialist did advise is to take a Sitz bath or sit in the bath two times a day to relax the muscles and to take Metamucil instead of the Fiber I’ve been taking.  Metamucil, really?  I hope it comes in a pill now.  I remember that stuff was gritty.  And two baths a day?  You know how if you are in thew ater to long you come out looking like a prune, I wonder if I can lose weight in my ass cheeks by doing this.


Doctor Updates& Tush Talk

So, I called the Specialist today and she is going to put the referral in now for the Colorectal Surgeon.  Hopefully it will be approved in time for my appointment on the 19th.  Of course, then I make an appointment with the Colorectal Surgeon before the actual Botox procedure, I’m sure.. but at least I’m headed the right direction.

In the meantime, I ordered one of those pillows with the holes in it. ..Donut Pillows?.. to sit on.  Supposedly, it shipped from GA on the 10th.  How long can it take to get from GA to CA?

Enough Tush Talk for tonight…  I saw. my metabolic specialist today and they upped my protein to 50 grams per day but want to keep the calories at 1700.  They say  I can pick foods that are higher in protein and lower in calories.  Yeah, wish me luck on this.  Weird how font suddenly changed to italics there..but I digress.  They started bagging on my Ruffles, Coca-Cola and GF Donuts but I rarely eat those things and I have to eat semi-normal treats sometime.  I have to admit I was excited when they encouraged me to start eating cheese for a snack as I love Smokey cheese.  The idea is to get my protein up without getting my weight up to quickly.  Of course, if my other issues heal up ; I can start exercising again which would help with the weight issues as well.

Whining on WordPress

Please be thankful for what you have be it a roof over your head, a working car, a bag of food, one arm, or even just the ability to use the retroom without pain.

Forgive me as I need to whine and vent a bit in this one.  It is so sad and a bit embarrassing  to be practically crying while in the restroom doing my business because it feels as if I am passing knives thanks to these fissures/hemmhroids.  You would think I had already had surgery and was breaking stitches with the pain I am in every time I go.  I know I need to eat fiberous foods and drink more water but I dread doing so because then I just go more often and the cycle continues.  I can barely sit comfortably and had to order myself a pillow for home to sit on.  I barely want to go anywhere when I feel well enough.  Luckily, in Vegas I could sit on a chair and not move for a bit.  It’s sad to look forwrd to seeing the specialist (Again) so this time I can beg for step 2 which is Botox.the step before surgery.  Obviously, the cream she gave me is not working.  I can barely even touch the area to apply it without pain and sometimes I think my whole ass cheek area becomes inflamed and does not want to open to let anything out.  Plus, to make my life more enjoyable…  (read with Sarcasm, please.) with the change in diet while in Vegas and back here I have been having accidents unknowingly (duh, they are accidents) in the middle of the night.  What a lovely thing to wake up to.  I am so glad my husband and I have separate rooms.  I am so glad I have such a patient and understanding husband.

Anyway, please remember there is alway’s someone worse off then you.  I know there are many people worse off then me.  I also know there are many people going through the same experiences.

But Yes, I do want to feel sorry for myself a bit now.  I want this to be over with.  I want to walk and crap like a normal person again without pain.  I think I did that before..I barely remember.  I want Botox, I want Surgery, I want Pain Pills.  I want anything it takes to stop all this stuff.  I don’t want pity but I do want understanding if at all possible.

I do feel a little better having written it all out.

Getting To The Bottom Of The Problem

Well, today was the day I was both waiting for and dreading.  The day of the specialist/surgeon appointment.  This one was a lady and she was super nice.  She didn’t have to use that horrible tool this time and she  totally empathized when I told her about what happened with the rude, male doctor I saw (who is in the same medical group and office she is in.  They have like 4 or 5 exam rooms or whatever and 4 or so doctors so it’s not like he heard me, not that I care).  Anyway, she even explained what can cause the fissures to be painful and a bit of how to try to keep your diet stable in order to handle it.

We are going to try, yet another, type of cream but this one has a really high success rate for curing people.  If it doesn’t work; our next step will be Botox into the area.  She said Botox does pretty much the same thing as surgery.  She said surgery is a last resort because some people who have surgery can become incontinent when it comes to gas or bowel movements and then they must have a follow-up surgery later.

Now, I have to find a Coumpound Pharmacy somewhere close to me and see if it is covered by insurance and how much this is all going to cost.    I would say I also need to have patience but it’s been over a year so I have lots of that.  Plus, if theres a real cure for this, it’s worth the wait.

Eye Vessel Pop & Other Issues

A blood vessel in my eye popped Tuesday morning but what was really weird was I felt it happen.  It freaked me out as  my eye filled with blood.  I had to check the internet to make sure I could close it to go to sleep.  It still hurts a bit and is causing headaches.  But, I am a headache sufferer anyway.  I guess I won’t worry unless my vision starts getting bad or something  as it is supposed to heal itself.

Luckily, it was the day prior that I had dropped all the notes and permit forms for the garage sale to the neighbors offering to take them to the city when I take mine.  One has already returned theirs.

I received my referral in the mail for the surgeon regarding my anal skin tag situation.  I was pleasantly, surprised to discover she is a female.  It will be good to see someone with a better manner than the last male specialist/surgeon I saw regarding this.  Being a female, I’m sure she will have some more understanding and empathy for this situation.

My husband and I went to Sizzler last night.  I looked at the picture of the shrimp and remembered it (which I cannot have anymore) but the Salad Bar is still really good.  Plus, when I went shopping yesterday, I bought quite a few more fresh fruits and veggies.. like Artichokes and Raspberries.  Yum.


Who Should I See?

Help.  What type of specialist (s) do you recommend for Anal Fissures/Skin Tags?  They need to take Blue Shield/ ADOC–(Affiliated Doctors of Orange County-HMO)  I need to ask my GP to get me to someone soon,  and this time I don’t want another GP that also knows about this.  I want a  Specialist of some sort.

So much pain.

This will sound gross but I described it to my husband as a Flea bite.  Now, multiply that by 12 (more like 100) and imagine them coming from inside your body every time you use the restroom.  I’ve been using the Healing Oil I ordered for a few days now (two?) but I’m not sure that’s going to work and it was really expensive.  I know they have a guarantee but I should give it at least another week before returning it..I just have a feeling it may be making me sting more.

Re-thought the motel situation while painting.  I am not going to bring the dog with me.  My husband will be here at night.  The idea of me going to the motel is so I don’t get sick staying here with paint fumes.  I am going by myself without the dog.  I have to be here all day with the animals anyway.  As soon as my husband gets home, I’ll take off and this way I will be away from the fumes as much as I can, to help my immune system.