Fergetfulness Can Be Funny

I really should stay away from Petco because I alway’s wind up buying teats and toys my babies don’t really need while I’m there.  I used the gift card my friend gave me but I still bought extra toys that we really didn’t need although my fur-babies love (of course) and my old, dog insisted on treats so what could I do?

On another note, I think I am losing my mind.  What else is new?  I really thought the housekeepers had gone and cleaned inside a few of the drawers when here, but, then I checked with my husband and he said that the adult drawer (which I’d questioned) was the same as he always kept it, which makes me think; maybe I am the one that hid my diary so they wouldn’t find it and maybe I am the one that folded my clothes in the other drawer a while back when sorting them and forgot.  It is possible.  Sometimes, when my headaches increase, or a lot is on my mind, or I eat the wrong foods and gluten reactions hit; I do weird things and completely forget.

It’s to bad because the suspicion of a Housekeeper finding our adult porn drawer was rather funny, I’ll admit.  I even asked my husband if he was sure he didn’t hear anything that sounded like a vacuum but wasn’t.  HA!

Resolutions, Giving & Faithful Followers

Happy New Year!  My Resolution is:  Not To Make One.  I gave up on that years ago.  I have ADD.  I can barely concentrate enough to keep up with housework.  I shocked myself by completing a novel in Nanowrimo, but I still haven’t finished editing it or done anything more.  Anyway, if you resolve something, I wish you luck.

I want to talk about giving for a minute and obligations or feeling obligated.  When it comes to the holidays do you really feel obligated to give when you have received something or how about obligated to give..peried?  I believe that is so wrong and takes out the entire meaning of the Holiday.  Shouldn’t the spirit of giving come from your heart and shouldn’t the reception just be thank-you?  Here’s an example:  I gave my neighbor a small Christmas gift.  I know she likes Nativities and I found a small Nativity statue thing.  I snuck it over there on the 23rd so she would not have time to run to the store and buy me something, because I know they are having financial issues.  She called me up after Christmas and left me a msg thanking me and saying she would bring something over later.  I called her in the morning and we had a long talk.  She told me she didn’t like receiving presents and not giving back so she was making cookies for people and would bring over fresh cookies.  Okay, that’s cool.  My husband loves fresh, baked, cookies.  My neighbor said someone from her church did the same thing.

But it really makes me think about people and giving and receiving.  I think this is one reason a few of my relatives cut me  off a while ago from giving them presents at Christmas.  They did not want to have to buy for me.  But you know what?  They don’t.  I don’t do this for a gift back.  I guess I don’t think about giving and receiving the same as other people do.

Before I end this one, I want to thank my Faithful Blog Followers!  What fun stats from the last entry!  I do hope I keep you interested.  I know my topics have gotten a bit more serious lately, but it’s my real life.  As things quiet down, perhaps more humor and memories will evolve again.

What Do You Do All Day?

For those who are unemployed, (especially with ADD/ADHD) how do you spend your day?

My husband asks the question, “What do you do all day?” Heck, my doctor has asked that one too.  It’s hard to explain:

I admit, I spend way to much time reading then doing.  I read way to many blogs on WordPress and my other journal catching up with new blogs I follow to make whatever comments necessary and to feel as if I’ve gotten to know the authors of the blogs before posting my own blog.  I check my e-mail and Facebook every day without fail.  Okay, the e-mail without fail.  I may look at Facebook but if I don’t post, that’s not a big deal.  I make a list of things to do but I am so slow in the morning I usually don’t get started until 11 or 12.  Plus, I give myself credit if half the list gets done.  The list includes things like wash hair, fill coffee container, make husbands lunch.  Simple things that normal people (whatever normal is) would naturally do without a reminder.

I have been focusing on the upcoming garage sale  lately and finding more things to sell each day and I put an ad on Craig’s List and posted on Facebook about it so it will be a success.  Plus, I have been looking for a framed picture of a Black Panther (animal) for the Living Room Wall since we’ve decided to decorate with wild animals and abstract art.

Sometimes, it doesn’t look like I accomplish much, but I really do.  I only allow myself one  or two t.v. shows during the afternoon and the rest are after my husband gets home from work.

I make a list every night for the next day and transfer over the things that didn’t get done  to the next days list.  It’s a never-ending cycle.  Weekends..nothing on the list gets done though since my husband is home and it is a wknd after all.

ADD Hermit Side of Me

If my health problems (back problems) are not Kidney and purely spinal/muscular then why would I have sharp pains?  That makes no sense.  I’ve been to the Chiropractor twice so far and on Friday I go again and they re-evaluate to see if it is helping.  After 3 times, I am supposed to know this?  Really?  At a job, you get a 3 month probation.  This will be my third time seeing the Chiropractor since I started.

Last night I smacked the counter with the Coffee-Pot while washing it so now I have to buy a new Coffee-Pot.  I am thinking of getting a  4-8 cup this time since I am the only one that drinks it.   Although, I am wondering if small/short filters are hard to buy.

I may go to Target today to find out although since I hate going to the actual store, I may just purchase on-line… then again, I really need to get out and be social.  I don’t know if it’s my ADD side but I am borderline recluse and love staying in the house as much as possible.  When it gets really hot outside, things might be different but for now, I just enjoy doing everything from and at home.  Plus, I’ve always preferred shopping on-line for everything verses dealing with crowds.

ADD & Husband

Every night before I go to bed I go through this ritual of wiping down the counter and the knobs on the stove (Thank God) and last night I discovered that one knob on the stove was not turned completely to the Off position.  It was barely there.  There was no flame, and no smell.  Nor was there any heat.  But, it wasn’t in the Off position which completely freaked me out.  I had last used it at 6 and that had been about 7 hours prior.  I was going to wake up S. but it was actually about 1-1:30 in the morning so I thought for a minute after putting my nose right next to the burner making sure I didn’t smell gas, and opened a window in the kitchen then decided to look up Yahoo Answers on my Cell Phone in the living room just to make sure there was no cause for concern.  All was fine but I wound up staying in the living room for about 15-20 minutes or more just to be safe .

Also, I have to make Lists for everything I do and and everywhere I go or I will most likely forget in a second.  It is actually sort of fun to see just how much I complete in a day on my list.  Anyway, my husband gets annoyed at times with my sense of direction and the fact that he has to clarify where a place is even though I’ve been there time and time again.  He hates it if I point out I have ADD.  He thinks I use it as an excuse.  One pet peeve of mine about him is his noisy gas which he is totally proud of and does all the time.  I seriously don’t remember him doing it as often before hei got married… Anyway, he was telling me how annoyed he was with me about having to remind me about directions somewhere when I’ve been there over and over again and right after he finished..he gassed.  So, I said, “Well, I get annoyed with that.”  He had to laugh and say, “I guess it’s and give and take isn’t it.”   I had to say, “Yeah, but in your case anyway..it’s more give and I’d rather not take.” lol.

Most of our arguments or at least those types will never have an ending and he knows it.

Hey, we’ve been married almost 11 years.  You would think he would be used to it by now.

Doctors Tests and Patient Covering

 

Yesterday was my Mammo appointment.  I always fight to go where I do because it is right around the corner from my house practically and they get you in and out really quick.  It is no longer covered by my insurance but they only charge $40.00 cash.  I wish they would figure out another way to do that test.  It seems ridiculous.  I tell S. it’s like smashing his penis between two plates or something.  I don’t know how else to describe it.

Today, I had a Calcium Scan.  The doctor seemed surprised when I told him I didn’t need to take my top off because I didn’t wear a bra.  It was nice to actually wear my sweats instead of that stupid cold, paper top.  They should really come up with better covers for when we go to hospitals or for tests.  You would think after all these years someone would have come up with something that not only looks more attractive but is also much more comfortable.  I think this especially in the OBGYN Office.  It’s ridiculous holding that stupid paper closed and hoping it doesn’t rip before the doctor even enters the room.  Maybe some sort of skirt that opens in the front?  Yeah..I know.. if I don’t do something quickly someone will jump on the idea.  Well, good for them.  Us, ADD people don’t do things quickly but it would sure help us out.

I was wondering if going through to many machines/tests in a week could be harmful to your health.  That is two in two days.  I’m guessing both were Laser related.

In A Doctors’ Time

I saw the Nephrologist yesterday and was quite perturbed upon arriving on time and hearing that” He stepped out for a while because no one was here but he should be back in about twenty minutes.  He knew he had patients.  Don’t worry you are the 1st one.”  This is the same doctor that makes people wait 1-3 hours for him and the doctor I re-scheduled last week because I got tired of waiting.  He showed up a little over half hour later and I was the first one seen.                        The appointment went well (as expected).  He doesn’t say much.  He did say to send him over the ingredients of Focus Factor (or I may just send any other Focus Vitamin/Med I may consider) so he can check out the ingredients but he does not agree with natural things since they aren’t proven and I cannot take Ginseng since I’ve had a Kidney Transplant.  The only thing he can recommend for my focus problem due to my ADD is to play Brain Games which I think are the ones by Luminosity so I’ll have to check those out.  I wonder if Solitaire and Slot Machines count because I play those quite often.

I got the inside of the house decorated today and this wknd we are probably going to do the outside.  It shouldn’t take long because we really don’t have much to put up as a lot of it was gotten rid of last year for one reason or another but I did buy something new this year and I will probably buy one thing new every year like I do at Halloween.  I never know if it will be for the inside or out but I’ve been trying to theme the house Snowman pretty much although I do have some Santa and Reindeer as well as a few other things here and there.

It’s funny, I alway’s say I like the Snow but I sure don’t like the cold so I don’t think I could live in it.  I live in So. CA and I am already looking forward to receiving my fleece-lined pants I ordered from Haband.  I am really hoping I don’t have a problem this time.  The last company I ordered them from they fit horrible.  But, I’ve bought clothes from Haband for years so I think they might actually fit this time.  One thing I would like about Snow though is to see it fall, I’ve only seen that happen once in my life and then if I remember correctly, it turned into slush like right after.  To watch an actual Snowflake and maybe to catch it on your tongue might be really magical.

ADD/ADHD Intelligence Level

Okay, So, I’m a little confused.  Seems in reading most blogs about ADHD/ADD, most people are Geniuses or at least super smart.  I am neither.  I have other problems.  I think my Intelligence is below average.  Yet, I still have ADD.  One person said he is highly intelligent and his doctor said he has the “classic signs of ADHD”.  Why is this common?  What would be the percentage of smart people verses under-achieving type people like me with ADD?  I am not stupid.  I did write and publish a Children’s book on Lulu.com. and I am working on another book at present. 

If Smartness or being at Genius level is a prerequisite for ADD/ADHD then my Psychiatrist and the TOVA Test diagnosis was completely and utterly wrong!

ADD & Time

I’m not sure my husband agree’s with the ADD  diagnosis but I do.  Actually, maybe he does but not with the idea of another medication.  He is insisting that this still has to do with the fact that I am afraid he may leave me.  This may have started from there or it may have started when my mother died but I don’t think I’ve even considered that for a long time.

  As far as the medication, my main problems seems to be focusing on something.  I’ll tell my husband I will watch a show with him after I take my pills and get a snack.  However, when I take my pills I have to be looking at the computer so I don’t focus on swallowing and I don’t choke.  While looking at the computer I get involved in reading articles or a Facebook Game or maybe even here at WordPress.  Soon my husband is asking me if I am still coming and I’m like..”Oh yeah, I’m sorry”  and I still need to make and eat a snack before I can watch something.  Plus, I’ll read a date for a doctors referral and think I missed the referral so I’ll e-mail my Primary requesting a new referral because the old referral expired.  After he says okay, I re-read the 1st referral and the date does not expire til next month so I am actually okay for another 2-3 weeks. 

 Things like this keep happening and are driving me crazyl.  Lately, I keep telling my husband I want to watch shows with him that I think have been recorded on DVR which haven’t been recorded yet.  He sort of snapped tonight and said he cannot invent time.

  My Therapist said ADD doesn’t have anything to do with Time Management but then again she hasn’t helped ADD/ADHD people in a long time so she may have forgotten.