Post Surgery & Thoughts

The surgery went well and the worst part is the stupid tube they put down my throat that they didn’t tell me about until after.  I am really not in a lot of pain otherwise.  But, now, I really hurt when I swallow and it makes me cough, etc.  It feels sort of like the tube is still there.  Surprisingly, the pain when going to the restroom and at the site of the fissure is less than it was before the surgery, so I believe this may have actually worked.

It’s raining today and I’m losing my mind.  I’ve misplaced my cell phone and my check book so I will have to start clearing the house until I find them.  The last time I misplaced my cell phone it was in  one of the bags in the closet I was going to give to a Homeless Person.  Needless to say, I’ve already checked there.  And, I haven’t used my checkbook in over two days.  Ugh.  I hope the doctor didn’t cut into my mind while I was under.

Speaking of wich, it’s scary how we go under anaesthesia so quickly,  I don’t remember my husband coming in to see me before going into surgery.  I remember asking the nurses to get him and I remember one of the nurses saying they had put something in the I.V. to help for pain and make me drowsy but that’s it. He said he showed up and we talked a bit but I cannot tell you what was said.

Lastly, I finished my Nanowrimo novel on the 27th.  I’ve already started editing.  I am pretty proud of it although I am not sure about the end as I sort of made it really quick.  But, I did it and that is the part that mattered.  I love that they even give you a printable certificate to prove it.  I proved I really am a Writer or can be if I set my mind to it.  In a few weeks or so, it will be onto my next (or continuing) project.

 

 

Post Surgery Update

I’m alive and I’m on Vicodin.  Not too much pain but very loopy.  Much more than normal peanut gallery people.

Surgery seemed fast, I was completely out.

Suffering bad headaches too.

Haven’t used the restroom yet.  Not looking forward to it.  Hospital gave us an actual  Sitz BAth which my husband set up. Like a Bidet for your rear end.

Pre-Surgery Day

It is 11:45 p.m. and I am thinking of eating more, not because I am hungry but because I cannot eat or drink anymore after midnight until my surgery is over.  My surgery is tomorrow at 11 a.m.    I am allowed the occasional sip of water should my mouth get extra dry tonight but that is it.  I admit I am starting to psych out a bit and imagine I am getting headaches.  I get headaches all the time under stress but I’ve already taken the two Tylenol allowed and it really is not much worse, plus, the Head-On is fine so I can use that.  I need to stop this psyching out stuff as it won’t help anything.  I gave it up to God.  How can I give it up to God if I am going to let Satan psych me out?    That is very contradictory.  I am going to get through this and I am going to be fine.  This is what I have been wanting for a long time.  To get rid of this horrible fissure I have had for over a year.  Two, maybe.  To have a life without pain when I walk or sit or take a shower or whatever and to have a normal life with my husband.  I won’t go into detail but some of you can guess. (For those of you that know us, don’t you dare tell him I said anything.)

In other news, I finished my novel today.  50,078 words.  It was actually 50,150 when I finished but I did some editing and corrected the wording a half hour or so later.  I am so excited that I met that goal.  I did something and didn’t quit.  My story proved interesting and disturbing.  I don’ know if I will get it published.  I really don’t know just what I would put it under.  It is kind of adult fiction and it deals with a girl who is searching for her father and discovers he is the leader of a Cult.  It goes into some horrible experiences of the members of the cult and some interesting things she learns about her life there.  Plus, how she finally escapes and what happens to him and the other cult members at the end.  There is quite a bit of graphic detail and drama so it would definitely not be children’s fiction.  Does adult fiction have an actual title?

Anyway, I had told a friend (actually, I may have simply posted it) that I would change the theme of my blog after I finished writing my novel on Nano.  I had the last theme because I wanted the Word count pop-up on the blog.  I finished the novel today so I changed the theme.  I hope you all like this one.

I’ll be back as soon as I can.  No guarantee’s on tomorrow.  I hear the pain is pretty bad and the antibiotics are pretty strong.  I’ll also be on Vicodin which will hopefully help me sleep.

Life at present.

All my pre-tests are done for surgery and my novel is almost complete for Nano.  The ending is tough but it is writing itself.  I do believe I’ve got the ending in my head figured out.  Bad english, let’s try that again… I do believe I have the ending figured out in my head.

My Christmas shopping is completely finished as I do it all on-line.  I even bought a few extra items for people I don’t usually buy for.

Plus, my husband bought me a Wii with the Wii Sports and Sports Resort for an early B-Day present.  It is so cool.  It gets me  off the couch now and really does get me sweating playing bowling and tennis, etc.  I look forward to recovering from surgery and doing even more.

So, that’s life right now, as I know it.

So Tired, and I Think She Lied

I am so tired but I hate to get out of the chair to go to bed.  Does that even  make sense?

I saw my Primary today for an EKG for my surgery.  According to the EKG, something is off and I may have had a heart attack in the passed.  I don’t think so.  Actualy, neither does he.  He said it’s the same as the last EKG he did, whenever that was.  So, my EKG’s are never normal.  He cleared me for surgery and I have to take a copy with me to the hospital but the Anesthesiologist can refuse to to the surgery now and make me see the Cardiologist first, if he wants.

I still have to do labs and get a chest x-ray as well as go pre-register within the next 7 days.  I also need to finish Nano.

Plus, I discovered the Receptionist for the surgeon lied and there probably is that crappy (literally) prep stuff to drink which makes you crap all night long to clean you out before surgery, after she said there was “no prep at all this time.” She said that so happily, too.  I think tomorrow, I will sleep in and then, go pre-register at least and do the labs Thurs or Fri.  When I Pre-Register, I’m sure they will give me all the instructions and then I will know for a fact if she lied so I can prepare myself.  The prep and recovery is the worst part of any surgery, especially this kind.

Writing Wknd & Witnessing Twilight LIne

I have 9 days to complete my novel for Nano and I’ve just done the math.  I need to write 1870 words a day.  I wrote 1869 today so I  know I can do this.  I have never written this much in my life in succession like this; and I don’t want to get Carpal Tunnel or something as my wrist is getting sore.

I also have quite a bit to do this week before the surgery on the 27th.

It’s a good thing my husband and I are not really into the whole Thanksgiving thing.  We like to eat but I am Gluten-Intolerant and my husband is happy enough with take-out.  Plus, we are not into tons of family..  It is mainly his family anyway as most of mine don’t live nearby.  His aren’t really nearby either.  It actually takes about 5 hours to visit them.

The wknd has been quiet with lots of writing accomplished and on Friday, we drove by the local theatre to see the line for Twilight.  It was insane.  I can’t imagine myself waiting in a line for a movie.  It’s a movie!  The celebrities aren’t even there, plus, it’s not the old stage play movie like, Rocky Horror where people actually acted out the scenes and you got to throw popcorn, etc.

It just amazed me all the “Twi-Hards” as they called them in the paper, camping out by the theatre.

Would you spend the night waiting for a movie?  Just curious.

 

 

This One’s For You.

It’s after midnight and my eyes are going out and I have to do the dishes, but, I will take 5 minutes or so to update You my Friends and Followers because I don’t want to lose you all just because I am working on a novel.

This blog really is important to me and I try to keep up every few days.  I am so sorry if my life is boring to you now.  I now understand why most writers are or become very reclusive.  The weather is starting to cool a bit which makes it the perfect setting to stay in my pajama’s.  Don’t worry, I do bathe and change my underwear and write at my computer all day if I wish..like I did today.  I must admit, today I got to over 28k,.  I did decide it was time for a break and played a few Bingo games, etc.  as a distraction from what my main character is now going though in the strange place in which she has arrived.

I learned today that my  surgery date is set for the 28th of this month which means while most people doing Nano will have until the 30th, I will have 3 days less.  While my surgery only lasts a day, I don’t think my story would end well if I am on Vicodin and I really am not sure how well I will do sitting on a chair after the surgery anyway.

We learned yesterday that a neighbors cat has been missing for two weeks which is quite sad.  It is a really a friendly cat too and would visit everyone.  What gets me though isthe owner is now asking if there is an AVID site yet, he still has not looked for the Chip # paperwork.  Nor, has he called, gone-to or checked the website for the local Animal Shelter.  Plus, there are no lost cat signs posted anywhere.  In my opinion, if you truly wanted your cat back, you would be doing one or all of these things plus, going door-to-door asking if anyone had seen him.  I have  lost my Fur-Children before and believe me, you don’t want to tangle with me because I get determined and hysterical about finding them.  When your animal has been gone two weeks and this is the reaction, it tends to make me wonder.

Okay, I must close my eyes now and I really cannot wash dishes with my eyes closed.  Believe me, I’ve tried it and the water runs to long.  It may not be tomorrow, it may be the day after.  However, please have patience and please keep reading this blog.  Who knows, maybe next year, I’ll put you in my Novel.  I really don’t know how I can use you in this one unless you give me permission to use your first (WordPress) name.  I will need more character names so I may even need you in this one.

Please let me know if this is acceptable.

Good-Night

 

Sorry So Slow, I’m Writing

Sorry, I haven’t kept up and I hope I don’t drive you all crazy when I do, but it’s NANO month and I’m doing it!  We are supposed to be at 25,000 words today and I am determined to get there.

I need to go to the dentist to and I have to clean the counters. No excuses.  I can’t have the granite chipping off because I am writing a novel.  This is awesome.  This is proving that I can write on a deadline and actually create something.  I am getting my ideas while washing my hair.  It’s crazy.  I don’t post much about it on Facebook because others are doing the same thing but I know I drive my sister nuts.  Come on Sis, You can do this!  Start writing again!  Jump back on the bandwagon.  Pretend it’s the first two days.  You can finish your book that way.  Heck, we don’t even have to worry about spelling, grammar, or punctuation..although we do have spell-check so I will use that.  I’m driving my neighbors crazy.  I tell everyone about this.  I tell strangers about this!  I wore my Nanowrimo t-shirt yesterday.  I am so proud of myself!

In other news… What other news?

I dropped my shoe-boxes off for Operation Christmas Child.  I went  to two different locations.  I’ve learned if you do it that way, there is a better chance of your boxes going to two different countries because they arrive at the Processing Center at different times.    If yo havne’t mad e a box this year, I highly encourage it.  You can even make one interactively at  the website www.samaritanspurse.org. It’s only a $7.00 donation per box and it only takes one box to help one child in another country.  This will be the only present they will probably ever ever receive in their entire lives.

I haven’t really been socializing because I think it’s best to play it safe before my surgery. That doesn’t mean I won’t get together one on one with people but I may avoid some parties.  I was invited to an 80’s get-together tomorrow night and I really want to go but on the other hand, I think it’s best to minimize that at present, with my weak immune system.   After my surgery, I will be happy to party and have fun.

Plus, I will feel more comfortable and my novel will be finished.   Oops, did I mention that again?  My novel?  Don’t those words sound professional?  My Novel?  Say that with me, won’t you?  “My Novel”  Look husband, I have a job.  I’m a Novelist.  Okay, not necessarily.  My first book was a Children’s Book, but I am definitely a Writer.  See, I’m not just unemployed.  I am a Freelance Writer which was I’ve alway’s dreamed to be.

Don’t worry, I’ll tune in again soon.

Fissure Surgery

I believe the surgery I am going to be having is called a Rectal Fistulotomy.  It seems to fit the description. Aapparently, quite a few people have gone through this and have not been in that 3%, wich is very promising.  A friend wrote and told me about the horrible pain she experienced while recovering (which was not promising).  I do wish people would focus more on the positive issues of things when they find out others are having surgery; versus the negative, which simply freaks us out more; but I’ve handled tons of pain in that area so I know I can handle more.  PLus, I’ve never heard of anyone dying from this type surgery.

 

Important Health Update Break

I saw the surgeon today and it turns out I will need surgery for my Anal Fissure.  I am not surprised.  After numerous creams and baths, etc.  Nothing has worked and it is still the same.  He says this surgery is Outpatient and has a 90% success rate.  He just cuts into the sphincter.  That’s exactly the way he worded it..made it sound really simple.   He said there is a 3% chance of long range complications of witholding gas and feces. (sounds like eternal IBS.) Guess that’s a risk I’m willing to take to get rid of pain.

In other news, Nanowrimo has some really cool games you can play when you want to be distracted from simply writing on your story.  One I like is sort of like Add-A-Story which some of you may have played growing up.  Someone starts a story and stops when it gets good then someone else takes it over and so on and so on until it turns out totally funny.  Or, maybe everyone was timed until the story ended.  Anyway, in this case.. the story is actually written (if you could call it a story) with the last lines from stories people are writing.  Example:

Someones last line they wrote of their story was:  “She opened her eyes and saw a ghost.”

The next person’s was: “But Trapper Jon said it wasn’t true.”

The next person said:  “Leif, I don’t trust you.”..and so on.

 

Now put it together.  She opened her eyes and saw a ghost, but Trapper John said it wasn’t true.  “Leif, I don’t trust you..”

It really does start to sound funny after a while especailly when so many people seem to be writing science fiction pieces and you throw in a few stories (like mine) that aren’t science fiction.  Now, after a I add a few hundred words or so, I  like to add my last line to the game and read them to see what we’ve come up with.  By the time I get to the end of the reading; someone else has added something after me so it usually turns out pretty silly.